“You can’t regret anything if you’re coming from a really honest place.
I’m on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you, I know it’s no good (♪)
“I’m proud of myself- so if the other people aren’t, that’s totally cool.
When you let go / You let go / You don’t know how (♪)At this point of her life, after Edward left her, Bella’s mind is practically a dismal hell: she wants a solution; a way to escape the pain, but really doesn’t know how to go about with it. Though many people criticize Stephenie for portraying women as ‘weak’ and ‘over dependent on men’ in New Moon, I feel as though it reflects our common humanity. This is how we are when a big, painful situation hits us: its impact is so hard- we want to move on and let go, but we simply just don’t know how.
Congratulations on being named Forbes’ highest paid actress. How do you measure success?
“Those Forbes lists are fucking bullshit. Really, they’re ridiculous. The list itself is somewhat true but not in detail- not that that matters… I’m never going to be the type of person who sits on a big mountain of money. Things become stagnant. But on a success level, I’ve never felt more challenged. I’m so ready to work right now. If I can always feel as challenged as I do now, I’ll feel successful.”
And now you’re involved in fashion. What interests you about it?
“…It’s an odd relationship that actors are allowed to have with fashion- I have nothing to do with it; I don’t make it. My impulse to create has nothing to do with clothes. But my interest is in being around that creative energy, even if it has nothing to do with my own. It’s so addictive. When a collection walks down the runway, it tells a story. It kind of has the spirit of a little movie.”
It’s funny that you want to look sturdy because I think so many girls nowadays want to look delicate, especially in heels.
“I always feel like I’m teetering on stilts, at least on carpets- especially walking around with fans. I hate towering over them. I so want to get down off those things.”
You’ve worked with some cool rebels, like Joan Jett. What is rebellious to you?
“With my just having played Snow White, everyone’s like, ‘You play all these strong characters; it must be so important for you to be a strong girl.’ The whole point is that as soon as you mention it, you discredit it. ‘Oh, yeah, strong for a girl. Thanks.’I think when your perspective is slightly different from other people’s and you’ve got the trust in yourself and the strength of heart to follow that, that’s a rebel.”
You seem really easy to talk to. I have read so much stuff about people being hard on you for not being superchipper. Do you care?
“I think that it’s awful when people misinterpret my being uncomfortable as, like, ‘I don’t want to be here.’ It’s really the opposite- I’m too concerned. I absolutely love it so much. I don’t expect to seem cool to everyone; nor do I want to be.”
‘I know if you haven’t thought about how you want to present a very packaged idea of yourself then it can seem like you lack ambition. But, dude, honestly? I can’t,’ she said.
She told Vogue: People expect it to be easy because there you are, out there, doing the thing that you want and making lots of money out of it. But, you know, I’m not that smooth. I can get clumsy around certain people.’
‘Like if I were to sit down and think, “OK, I’m really famous, how am I going to conduct myself in public?” I wouldn’t know who that person would be! It would be a lot easier if I could, but I can’t.’
Kristen, who stars in new film On The Road, also moved to speak of her empathy for the Beat generation, on which the film is based.
‘There is always going to be that seam of people who want things differently to the standardised version. It’s not necessarily a rebellious thing, it’s just who they are.
‘That world back then, it just seems freer to me than anything I could ever touch and I’m fully nostalgic for it, even though I wasn’t even alive then.
‘It’s the loyalty aspect of it all. I love being on the periphery with a group of people who have the same values that I do. People who don’t get off on fame, who just like the process of making movies and thrive.’
“At first, the reason I started doing this was literally just because I wanted a job. My parents are crew – my mom’s a script supervisor; my dad’s an AD – and I always looked up to them, I really completely glorified the movies. And so at first, I just wanted the responsibility. I wanted adults to talk to me. I wanted to be involved. I was bored. Then I turned 13 and did this movie called Speak…I mean, to do a date-rape movie at 13, it really affected me. I suddenly felt like things could be really important and really help people. I did this public service announcement right after I did the movie and this enormous influx of people called in and said things that they had never told anyone before. And it hit me so fucking hard. I was like, ‘Wow, something that I love, something that was so personal to me’ – because at that point, I had never gotten any aknowledgement for anything I’d done, it really was just for me – ‘suddenly touched people.’ Movies, they can be important if you want them to be.”
—Kristen Stewart, With Little White Lies (x)